Loving him was never in plan. Getting in a decent college since she never wanted her father's filthy money and then getting a decent job so she could spend her life peacefully, alone. This is all Nimrat wanted , but then one fine day she met him. That was her first day in college , she was finding a suitable spot to sit so that she could sit there and check her class schedule and that is when she saw him. He was with his friends , sitting under that huge tree , probably being happy at that time since he was laughing so wholeheartedly. He looked so handsome at that moment that he instantly took her breath away , leaving her breathless.

Now today when she saw him today ,wearing that dark blue suit. He looked breathtaking , just like that day. He left her breathless .

The difference was just that , that day she dreamt about them being together and today she saw him becoming someone else's .

Seeing Misha making Yuvaan wear the ring , Nimrat turned around trying to hide her tears . She could never control it. Her feelings for him , it has been so intensified from the time she saw him that even if how hard she try to move on , to forget him. She just couldn't.

The huge applause resonated in the hall as she heard the congratulations among the crowd . The ceremony is done. They are engaged .

A small sad smile broke onto her lips as she slowly turned around , only for her eyes to clashe with his dark orbs. Yuvaan looked straight at her orbs , as if challenging her to even try to divert her gaze. His eyes looked different , as if some huge rage was building inside them, ready to explode any moment. Nimrat's trance broke when she found herself being tuned around. There stood Veer and Khushi looking at her with concern visible in their eyes.

"Mari nahi hun mai abhi jo aise dekh rahe ho dono" Trying to lighten the mood , Nimrat spoke only to get smaked by them . (I am not dead yet that you both are staring at me like that)

"Hey that hurts"

"Shut up Nimrat , I am serious" Veer exclaimed.

"Mai bhi" Khushi said

(Me too)

"Kya mai bhi Aurat" Veer looked at her being annoyed already.(What me too woman)

"Aree matlab mai bhi serious hun aadmi" Khushi replied smaking him on the head in the middle of the crowd. (Aree means I am serious too)

"Tu mujhe copy karna band kar pehle toh , khud ko kuch nahi aata kya ya fir already do badam kha chuki hai tu" Veer argued rubbing the area she hit. (Stop copying me ,do you know anything or have you already ate tow almonds)

"Haein? Matlab? What do you mean by two almonds Veer , bachi kuchi buddhi bhi bech khai kya tune" Khushi frowned asking him seriously. (Have you sell you rest of the brain veer)

"Exactly , jab tere jaise log apna dimaag market mai bechne jaate haina , toh uske badle unko do badam hi milte hai" Veer smirked wrapping his arm around Nimrat who was looking at both of them with a look that yelled Somebody-stop-them and that she was so done with both of her bestfriends which are not less then toddler. (When people like you sell their brain in market , what they get are two almonds)

"Suar aadmi , rukk tu . How dare you say that to me" Khushi whispered yelled at him, fanning her face continously trying to make her face normal which was totally red due to embarrassment. (You pig)

"What will you d-"

"Stop both of you already. What are you both? Five?" Nimrat exclaimed looking at both of them with disbelief , making her way towards the balcony since she couldn't stand both of her bestfriends .

"Bola tha tujhe ye plan flop hoga.....gadha" Khushi said stomping her high heel on Veer's foot before following Nimrat .

(Told you this plan will be a flop...donkey)

"But I just wanted to distract her" Veer mumbled hissing and following both of them , towards the balcony.

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"Sorry Niru yrr I swear this was Veer's plan so that you would be distracted and wouldn't think much about him" Khushi whined gkaring at Veer and trying her best to make Nimrat talk to them who just ignored them gazing at the dark sky.

"Sorry na Nimbu I promise we would never do something like this ever again....in public" Veer too whined stomping his feet .

"Chii bey bas kar abb" Khushi smacked him making face which clearly yelled that she was pissed.

(Yuk dude stop now)

Turning around Nimrat looked at them , blankly before holding both of the hair and pulling them to her level. What to do she was the shortest one in the trio of height being 5'5 followed by Khushi being 5'7 and Veer being 6'1 .

"First of all you Mr.Veer.....I dare you to call me with that name again and I will definitely be the one to kill you and second of all you Miss.khushi stop participating in his idiotic plans , I assumed you to be matured than him" Nimrat said shaking both of their heads by fisting their hair.

"Promise we won't do that ever again" Both of them replied together while glaring at each other , again.

Sighing at their antics , Nimrat left them taking a seat on the couch jhula placed on the balcony followed by both of them who sat on her either sides squishing her in between.

"I am not thinking about him" the silence in their was cut off as Nimrat spoke catching their attention.

"We think about people whom we tend to forget but he is my identity and we don't forget ourselves so yeah I am not thinking about him" She stated the truth , this was her truth.

Veer scoffed fisting up his wrist as he tried to control his frustration, too fed up of explaining and making her understand while Khushi looked at her blankly not giving away anything .

"You do know that Yuvaan and Misha are getting married in three day , don't you Nimrat?" Khushi spoke getting up , angry on her and more angry on the fact about Yuvaan saying yes to the marriage.

His eyes said it all. His conflicting feelings for Nimrat and the fact that he never looked at Misha the way he looks at her.

But than again both of them are running away. One was running away from his feeling while other one was from him.

"Yes and that is why I have decided of doing my MBA from Australia. I will leave after their marriage" Nimrat replied anxiously looking at now a raging Nimrat and a surprised Veer , both of them having a betrayed look .

As Khushi started walking out of their , Nimrat ran after her grabbing her hands tightly, stopping her from moving further as she looked at her now crying face. Looking over her shoulder she saw Veer clenching his jaws who had his eyes away from her .

"So you just like that decided to leave , leave us. You didn't even bothered to ask any of us Nimrat. Do you even consider us as your friends?" Khushi yelled trying to release her hands from Nimrat's tight grip.

"First listen to me Khusha , its not lik-"

"Like what? Like what huh? You have decided to leave us alone and shifting to another country and let alone ask , you didn't even bother to inform us about it. Is this nothing for this , this friendship, us . Are we nothing to you" As her yelling increased with her cries , Nimrat tried her best to hug her while controlling her own tears .

Veer held Khushi's shoulder trying to calm her down. "Can you see Veer? She , our bestfriend , She has decided to leave us here alone and didn't even bothered to inform any of us"

"I am sorry, its not lik-" As Nimrat tried explaining to them, she got cut off by Veer.

"You are not going anywhere Nimrat , you didn't tell us , decided everything on your own. Its alright. Maybe we didn't matter in your life that much but you matter. For me , for Khushi , you are our bestfriend, our family and so You are not going anywhere" Veer said making his way out with Khushi , leaving her all alone there . He has always been the most bubbly in their group always goofing around but all three of them knew , Veer always meant everything which he said and Nimrat knew it all too well that he wouldn't let her go making her cry out in helplessness.

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I will leave after their marriage.

As these words rang in his mind , he increased the speed of his car , driving through the heavy rain and empty night streets of Mumbai. If not for the empty road , he surely would have got into an accident by the way he was driving. It appeared as if someone has kept a huge rock on his chest which was slowly taking his breath away , suffocating him and leaving him breathless .

When she disappeared from the party suddenly and even after searching for her like shit he couldn't find her , he didn't know what to do. Everything was going wrong , he was engaged to his girlfriend but there he was searching for his girlfriend's sister whom he thinks he hates . And even after trying to control his fucking feelings he couldn't stop thinking about her , hence searching her like a crazy person , that is when he reached near the balcony and heard her .

"How can she just fucking leave like that after making me a mess" His jaw clenched and eyes red as he increased the speed of his car only for it to came to halt in front of her house.

"You have to give answer to my every question today Nimrat Batra" he rasped , closing the car door behind him and making his way through the back door of her house , all through getting wet in the heavy rain .

He was going to get his answers of the question he himself don't know.

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Rubbing her soaked hair , Nimrat sat on her bed , sighing in tiredness. Today was a long day , from the encounter of Misha to the argument she had with Veer and Khushi , it all was too much for her.

"Mujhe sukun chahiye maa" She whispered closing her eyes while resting her head on the head board.(I want peace Ma)

As she was about to get into a deep slumber , her eyes shot opened listening to the continuous loud knocks on her door. Glancing at the hanging clock which read 2:30 in the morning , her brows furrowed . Thinking of who could be their at this time.

Opening the door , she froze on her step , her breathing stopped and her being numb to give any response as she glanced at the disheveled state of Yuvaan standing on her bedroom door step . His clothes and hair wet and eyes red . The amount of oxygen she took after releasing the breath she didn't know she was holding , she opened her mouth only to close it again , not knowing what to say.

"W-what are y-" Her eyes widening and a loud gasp leaving her lips as she found herself being pushed with him as he closed the door behind them , pinning her on the nearby wall.

Yuvaan stared at her , from head to toe . She wore a simple light pink kurti and had her hair free , a little soaked . Her face free of any makeup as usual looked too fresh , for a moment the thought of doing anything but just looking at her eyes and caressing her face occupied his mind , freezing his mind completely.

"What do you think of yourself?" He whispered keeping his hands on either sides of her head as he leaned close to her.

"Huh?" Nimrat asked in daze, too distracted by their closeness to think about anything .

"Who do you think you are to leave just like that after making me a mess" his jaw clenched completely as he rasped , this time a little loudly.

A sheer goosebumps erupted and anderaline rushed through Nimrat's veins as she looked at him , shocked. Not knowing that how did he came to know about this and all of why was he affected so much. Gulping in a huge amount of air , Nimrat closed her eyes before looking at him. Trying to stop her almost exploding heart and masking her expressions.

"You are not in your senses right now . Come to your senses Yuvaan , You should go from here" She spoke staring at him blankly , only for his rage to intensify more.

In all this time , if something that Yuvaan knew he hated the most was her eyes being blank. It was as if he goes crazy seeing her golden-brown orbs being blank and not having any sparkle in them and the fact that he would do any fucking thing to bring that sparkle back was something that made him messed up.

"Make me.....make me come to my senses Nimrat because if this goes on , even I don't know what would I do with you , to both of us" His voice dropped , his face leaning , landing near her ear lobe as he slided his hand to her waist , pulling her closure to him. As close as possible.

"Stop , stop it Yuvaan. Please" Nimrat whispered , her eyes filling with tears as she found her eyes being closed. This was peace for her , being in his arms . Oh how much she have dreamed about this , about them .

Maybe she was being desperate , pathetic. Maybe she was selfish . But what do you expect from a person who was always deprived of love. The person who loved her truly , her mother , left her. When she thought that her father would understand her , will protect. He too tuned out to be nothing but just an animal , leaving her deprived of a father's love and leaving her to deal with her stepmother and stepsister who did nothing but just made her life hell. And then when she finally fell in love with someone , again God took him away from her.

He is engaged . Leave him Nimrat.

"Leave me Y-"

"Why do you like me Nimrat?" Yuvaan asked cutting her off in between as he joined both their foreheads. He didn't know what he was doing but this gave him peace , being close to her . Her in his arms. It felt right , too right to be wrong.

"Huh?" Nimrat asked dumbfounded, too stunned to speak anything.

"Why do you like me Nimrat?" He again asked caressing her cheek with his thumb , making circles. Her skin was so soft , just like cotton.

"Because you make me comfortable" I love you. She wanted to say this too but she just replied too nervous to look into his eyes.

"But I don't want to make you comfortable" he whispered staring at her lips for a little too long as he caressed her lower lip.

"Huh?"

"I want to make you feel butterflies. I want to be the reason of all your jitters , just me" As he completed , Nimrat opened her eyes looking at him , her heart stopped . How she wish it was all true , only if he would have said that before . But now its wrong. Misha was right , she first destroyed her mother's life and now she was destroying hers too. Now when she saw Yuvaan being this close to her . What was she even thinking that she let him being this close to her. How can she stoop this low.

"This is not Misha , Yuvaan . Her room is the next one from here" As Nimrat whispered those painful words , Yuvaan felt as if someone slapped him hard. His whole being numb before his looked at her. His once soft eyes turned blank as he left her with a jerk distancing himself from her and at that moment Nimrat knew , that he would never be hers , not now , not ever.

"You are same , just like her. Everyone is fucking same. You know what , you are right. I am the pathetic one here. Thank you for taking me to my senses Miss.Batra and you are most welcome in the marriage. Do come"

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